Stronger then you know

As 2014 is coming to an end, yes it’s only November but soon we will all be hugging each other saying Happy New Year! 2015 is coming up and I’m ready. I’ve decided that it’s going to be the year where I not only say ” I want to be strong” or “I want to have faith”. It will be the year where I AM strong and where I HAVE faith. The things that has happened this year, and in the past have proven to me that I am  stronger than I think. I have got to know and see myself in my own state of survival mode and when I came home and could relax, ponder and realize what I had been in the middle of and how scared I had been, but not felt it at that time. It all came to me when I came home. I cried, I trembled and I was angry. Angry and sad that what I thought was going to be a relaxing at the beach vacation became something totally different. Something that was going to make me face and use my inner strength, the superwoman I had only dreamt of. She was for real. Kicking and alive! Ready to fight and not give in to fear and discouragement. The only time I got a little sad I called my father for some encouragement, but he was at a soccer game and the only thing I heard was him yelling in the phone “Bromma boys scored!!!” It made me laugh and the upset feelings regarding the  two red alerts followed by rocket attacks and hiding in a bomb shelter was gone. Gone but not forgotten. We were under attack during a week and coming home and thinking ” What just happened???” was very overwhelming. Something that really helped me find peace and dealing with the upset feeling was to go back.So A few months later I did it! I Went back to Tel Aviv, I Went back to Jerusalem, and I went back to what now and forever will be a part of my heart and home. Israel, the Holy land and I’ll continue to come back as often as I can.

2014 I want to thank you for giving me new opportunities to grow and to learn new things about myself and life in general. Thank you for the amazing people you sent in my way, thank you for keeping me safe and thank you  for all the blessings I received.

Greatest lesson learned? I am stronger than I ever could have guessed. That also means that You are stronger than you know and my hope is that life today and during 2015 will prove that to you 🙂

Shalom ❤

I had arrived. I was back to the city where a few months earlier had experienced something that would affect my life in ways I never knew was possible. I had been a part of something new. I had been in a warzone.

I had arrived. I was back to the city where a few months earlier had experienced something that would affect my life in ways I never knew was possible. I had been a part of something new. I had been in a warzone.